Question Summary:
Something is wrong with me

Question Detail:

I lost my sleep and apetite over 6 months ago. I have been very worried since then as i have felt changes in my brain and body. i feel that i wont get better and will die very soon. im reflecting back on  my life to see what i may have done wrong so i can put it right.

Answer :

In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

As-salāmu ‘alaykum wa-rahmatullāhi wa-barakātuh.

Brother in Islam,

We sorry to read about your condition. May Allah grant you complete cure. Aameen.
Your present condition is a test from Allah Ta’ala.
 Allah Ta’ala says:

وَلَنَبْلُوَنَّكُمْ بِشَيْءٍ مِنَ الْخَوْفِ وَالْجُوعِ وَنَقْصٍ مِنَ الْأَمْوَالِ وَالْأَنْفُسِ وَالثَّمَرَاتِ وَبَشِّرِ الصَّابِرِينَ، الَّذِينَ إِذَا أَصَابَتْهُمْ مُصِيبَةٌ قَالُوا إِنَّا لِلَّهِ وَإِنَّا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعُونَ، أُولَئِكَ عَلَيْهِمْ صَلَوَاتٌ مِنْ رَبِّهِمْ وَرَحْمَةٌ وَأُولَئِكَ هُمُ الْمُهْتَدُونَ (سورة البقرة: 155-157)

Translation: Be sure we shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods or lives or the fruits (of your toil), but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere. Who say, when afflicted with calamity: "To Allah We belong, and to Him is our return.” Such are they on whom are blessings from their Lord, and mercy. Such are the rightly guided. (Al-Baqarah: 155-157)

Rasulullah Sallallahu Alaihi Wa Sallam gave us hope in the following hadeeth,

عَنْ جَابِرٍ، عَنْ رَسُولِ اللَّهِ صلى الله عليه وسلم أَنَّهُ قَالَ ‏ "‏ لِكُلِّ دَاءٍ دَوَاءٌ فَإِذَا أُصِيبَ دَوَاءُ الدَّاءِ بَرَأَ بِإِذْنِ اللَّهِ عَزَّ وَجَلَّ ‏"‏ ‏(رواه مسلم)‏

Translation: Jabir Radhi Allahu anhu reported that Rasulullah Sallallahu Alaihi Wa Sallam said: There is a remedy for every malady, and when the remedy is applied to the disease it is cured with the permission of Allah, the Exalted and Glorious. (Muslim) [i] 

You should continue exploring medical avenues to have yourself cured.

Be determined and positive. While you adopt all possible means to cure yourself, be patient, and turn to Allah with Salaah, Dua’a & Zikr. [ii]

Allah Ta’ala says

وَبَشِّرِ الصَّابِرِينَ، الَّذِينَ إِذَا أَصَابَتْهُمْ مُصِيبَةٌ قَالُوا إِنَّا لِلَّهِ وَإِنَّا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعُونَ، أُولَئِكَ عَلَيْهِمْ صَلَوَاتٌ مِنْ رَبِّهِمْ وَرَحْمَةٌ وَأُولَئِكَ هُمُ الْمُهْتَدُونَ (سورة البقرة: 155-157) 

Translation: . . . but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere. Who say, when afflicted with calamity: "To Allah We belong, and to Him is our return.” Such are they on whom are blessings from their Lord, and mercy. Such are the rightly guided. (Al-Baqarah: 155-157)

يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا اسْتَعِينُوا بِالصَّبْرِ وَالصَّلَاةِ إِنَّ اللَّهَ مَعَ الصَّابِرِينَ

Translation: O you who believe! Seek assistance through patience and Salah. 
Indeed Allah with those who are the patient ones. (Al-Baqarah: 153)  

أَنَّ عَائِشَةَ رَضِيَ اللَّهُ عَنْهَا زَوْجَ النَّبِيِّ صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ قَالَتْ قَالَ رَسُولُ اللَّهِ صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ مَا مِنْ مُصِيبَةٍ تُصِيبُ الْمُسْلِمَ إِلَّا كَفَّرَ اللَّهُ بِهَا عَنْهُ حَتَّى الشَّوْكَةِ يُشَاكُهَا (صحيح البخاري)

Translation: Rasulullah Sallallahu Alaihi Wa Sallam said, "There is no difficulty that happens to a Muslim except that Allah removes a sin because of it even if a thorn pricks him and even to that degree." (Saheeh al-Bukhari)[iii]

And Allah Ta’āla Knows Best

Mirza Mahmood Baig

Student Darul Iftaa

Jeddah, KSA

Checked and Approved by,
Mufti Ebrahim Desai.

[i]  صحيح مسلم للنيسابوري (7/ 21) 

5871 - حَدَّثَنَا هَارُونُ بْنُ مَعْرُوفٍ وَأَبُو الطَّاهِرِ وَأَحْمَدُ بْنُ عِيسَى قَالُوا حَدَّثَنَا ابْنُ وَهْبٍ أَخْبَرَنِى عَمْرٌو - وَهُوَ ابْنُ الْحَارِثِ - عَنْ عَبْدِ رَبِّهِ بْنِ سَعِيدٍ عَنْ أَبِى الزُّبَيْرِ عَنْ جَابِرٍ عَنْ رَسُولِ اللَّهِ -صلى الله عليه وسلم- أَنَّهُ قَالَ « لِكُلِّ دَاءٍ دَوَاءٌ فَإِذَا أُصِيبَ دَوَاءُ الدَّاءِ بَرَأَ بِإِذْنِ اللَّهِ عَزَّ وَجَلَّ ».

الجامع الصغير لجلال الدين السيوطي (3/ 412) 

7306 - لكل داء دواء ، فإذا أصيب دواء الداء برئ بإذن الله تعالى

(3) 7307 - لكل داء دواء ، ودواء الذنوب الاستغفار

السنن الكبرى للنسائي (4/ 326)

حدثنا وهيب بن بيان قال ثنا بن وهب قال أنا عمرو بن الحارث عن عبد ربه بن سعيد عن أبي الزبير عن جابر أن رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم قال إن لكل داء دواء فإذا أصيب دواء الداء بريء بإذن الله

[ii] The method of performing Salatul Haajah (Salah performed for a certain need) is:

لاَ إِلَهَ إِلاَّ اللَّهُ الْحَلِيمُ الْكَرِيمُ سُبْحَانَ اللَّهِ رَبِّ الْعَرْشِ الْعَظِيمِ الْحَمْدُ لِلَّهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِينَ أَسْأَلُكَ مُوجِبَاتِ رَحْمَتِكَ وَعَزَائِمَ مَغْفِرَتِكَ وَالْغَنِيمَةَ مِنْ كُلِّ بِرٍّ وَالسَّلاَمَةَ مِنْ كُلِّ إِثْمٍ لاَ تَدَعْ لِي ذَنْبًا إِلاَّ غَفَرْتَهُ وَلاَ هَمًّا إِلاَّ فَرَّجْتَهُ وَلاَ حَاجَةً هِيَ لَكَ رِضًا إِلاَّ قَضَيْتَهَا يَا أَرْحَمَ الرَّاحِمِينَ (سنن الترمذي: ١/٦٠٣)

Transliteration: Lā ilāha illallāhul-halīmul- karīm subhānallāhi rabil-a’rshil- a’dhīm al-hamdu lillahi rabil-ā’lamīn asaluka mūjibāti rahmatik wa a’zāima maghfiratik wal-ghanīmata min kulli birr was- salāmata min kulli ithm lā tada’ lī dhamban illā ghafartah wa lā hamman illa farrajtah wa lā hājatan hiya laka ridhan illa qadhaytahā yā arhamar-rāhimīn.

Translation: There no god but Allah the Clement and Wise. There is no god but Allah the High and Mighty. Glory be to Allah, Lord of the Tremendous Throne. All praise is to Allah, Lord of the worlds. I ask you (O Allah) everything that leads to your mercy, and your tremendous forgiveness, enrichment in all good, and freedom from all sin. Do not leave a sin of mine (O Allah), except that you forgive it, nor any concern except that you create for it an opening, nor any need in which there is your good pleasure except that you fulfill it, O Most Merciful! (Tirmidhi)

[iii]  صحيح البخاري ـ م م (7/ 114)

5640 - حدثنا أبو اليمان الحكم بن نافع أخبرنا شعيب عن الزهري قال أخبرني عروة بن الزبير أن عائشة رضي الله عنها زوج النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم قالت قال رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم ما من مصيبة تصيب المسلم إلا كفر الله بها عنه حتى الشوكة يشاكها